The minute I started doing my stuff, all the hospital monitors started behaving very strangely. Odd, persistent beeping noises that just wouldn’t stop.

The nurses said, “Oh let me adjust that. It must be on the fritz, it’s never done that before.” They would come over, adjust the machines, and then once I started doing my work again, the machine would make strange noises again, and they’d come over again to re-adjust it. This happened several times.

Not once did anyone say, “Hmm, I wonder if that has anything to do with what you’re doing?” Consciousness again, screening out “interference”. What I was doing looked too strange, so it got screened out as weird. It certain couldn’t be causal or influential, in terms of what was being observed on a physical and mechanical level. But hey, that’s ok, it’s not my priority while I’m in the ICU…

So I did my work, and while I did so, the BP monitor on this patient started to change noticeably. I totally ignored the BP monitor but other people in the room were watching. Whatever. I don’t believe this could due to placebo since this man was in a deep coma and on a respirator. People who were watching me didn’t know what to think, and sort of shrugged it off. But the patient’s brother was watching me and the BP monitor, and he said, “Wow, it’s dropped 6 points in the last couple minutes since you started. Whatever you’re doing, keep doing it,” he said.

Oh, ok. I didn’t pay him much mind– my focus was on the patient.

Then at one point, I felt an intense flash go thru me like a wave. It’s hard to explain. It felt like a bolt of light come through me. Simultaneously, within half a second or so, this patient in a coma suddenly stirred and woke up. He sat up and waved at me!

Well, I didn’t know what else to do but wave back. He was conscious and lucid for about 30 seconds before going back into a coma.

His wife was absolutely delighted, etc. How did this all happen, etc? I don’t know and it doesn’t matter. I’m there to do my stuff, and this was what I was directed to do.

But to say “nothing happened” because no one could measure anything? I don’t know. I couldn’t say the same result would happen on the next coma patient, right? I can only say on this patient, at this time, at his level of consciousnes and mine, this did indeed happen.

But it doesn’t mean it could ever happen again. Consciousness, again. It’d be impossible to find someone else exactly like him. Or the time and place, etc. No two patients are alike, and neither am I the same, over and over. From my subjective reality, there is a reason why this particular patient and I intersected at that point. Could I prove it? No. But it is a feeling. A consciousness. How on earth would a gadget measure that feeling? BP? Brain waves? I don’t know. But this feeling is PART of what is going on here, in the room…

A shut up and calculate person would say, “Well that proves nothing. He could have woken up from his deep coma for a number of reasons, and you just happened to be standing there.”

Yes, Steve, this is true. But what do we get out of continuing with that assumption? Nothing new is explored. We’re right back where we started.

Meanwhile, unless a researcher thought ask in the design, they might miss the fact that I was burning up from this experience, practically sweating. But the room temp did not change. That is “energy”, but how and why and where? If a researcher is only interested in atoms in the room, and there was no discernible energy temp change in the room, it must mean there was no change at the atomic level, and so maybe it was just something weird that I had eaten for breakfast, right? It must have been me who was the “interference”.

Yes, this is true. But again, Steve, if you hold to this perspective to screen out “interference” when something happens that does not make sense, nothing is learned. It’s all a bunch of “nothing.” What if, just what if, me burning up was directly related to the exchange of energy going on with the patient? Isn’t that possible? Wouldn’t you want to somehow study that?

Ok, going on. This patient was in the terminal phases of cancer. One kidney had been removed. The other was at 5% function, resulting in the need for dialysis. So I worked on that kidney. Meanwhile, I see a whole bunch of colors floating around this man, as well as distortions in the body that go out 3 -4 ft. If you know anything about the chakras, I was lost when looking in the lower body. It felt very odd.

2 days after I did my thing, the wife called all excited, that the remaining kidney had gone from 5% function to 100% function. The doctors were shocked and couldn’t explain it. The wife thought it was a miracle. The doctors were satisfied enough with his condition that they allowed him to be released to go home.

A shut up and calculate person would assume this could have been for a number of things. Maybe it was that months of dialysis somehow magically worked in the same 48 hrs. It certainly couldn’t be due to someone coming in and being with this man for 35 min. Especially if “nothing happened.”

Meanwhile, I can’t prove I had anything to do with it either, right? I might assume my work had some hand in this, but how and how much? Who knows. But that is not my main focus. I do my stuff and we go from there.

Back to the story: My consciousness knew this was not a miracle in the sense that the wife hoped, but more of a final reprieve. I can’t tell you how I knew, I just knew. (How would a gadget measure that? I wonder.) His wife’s consciousnes thought it was a miracle of full recovery. The doctors’ consciousness was it was just spontaneous improvement of the kidney, due to whatever factor. “Just luck — sometimes it just happens”.

So, 3 different consciousnesses, 3 different interpretations, right?

Anyway, so this man was sent home. And in the week following, I had several recurring dreams where I knew this man was not going to live much longer. I “knew” in a very conscious way, with information that came from “somewhere else”, that this man had asked me to show up and help him because he wanted to die at home, around his family. ICU is a most un-fun place.

Where did these dreams come from, Steve? I have no idea. It is subjective. It is consciousness, this thing you state you’d like to study. Or would you regard my dreams just a crazy firing of neurons in the brain, a product of my own biological processes that don’t mean anything? Would you get a gadget that could measure whether the air in the room changed as I dreamt? I don’t know. Did the atoms in the room act differently while I slept? How on earth do you measure the quantum energy of dreams? By measuring brain activity? That doesn’t give you anything new on this. It’s just, well, brain activity.

Shut up and calculate would say it was just a coincidental dream. Happens all the time. Firing of neurons and stuff — that’s all it is, right?

And I would have no way to express to anyone that these dreams were different in thier quality than regular dreams. How does a gadget measure that? Who’d believe me anyway?

Sure enough, 5 weeks later, this man died at home, peacefully and surrounded by family.

A friend who is a medium called me up the following day and said, “He wants to tell you how thankful he is for what you did. He is delighted now. Beaming. Happy and out of pain. He wants you to know this.”

Oh. Ok. Well, how do you calculate this, Steve? You’d have to have had someone run over and measure what my medium friend had experienced, in the form of vision and clairaudience. You’d have to have expected this to happen, to be ready for it. But no, I don’t usually get calls from my friend with stuff like this. This was unusual. It was specific to this event only. Not repeatable.

Meanwhile, the couple days after he died, I kept noticing several same model/color Porsches on the road next to me that he drove. Unusual. I don’t usually see them ever, and over the next two days I saw 3 of them. My consciousness just sensed something was unusual.

Shut up and calculate would assume this had nothing to do with it. Just my heightened sensitivity, right? LOA enthusiasts might say somehow I was “manifesting” these cars or something. That must be it, right? That would be a LOA’s consciousness interpretation. Mine is different, and equally valid. I see it more as a message. How would you get a QM gadget to account for something like this? Do we assume atoms responded differently because I was somehow looking for porsches, for no reason? And then quantum theory made them suddenly materialize? How is that different from when a message from the other side shows up, that I wasn’t even looking for? That’s consciousness too, right?

And at the end of the day, after all of this, shut up and calculate would say, “Well, it was still a negative result. The man died. All your work was for naught. So in the end, energy work amounted to absolutely nothing.”

But someone with a different consciousness might notice all the unusual things that occurred with this and say, “Hmmm, what could have happened here?”

My point is, this series of events probably have no meaning to anyone except me. I can’t imagine they are of much interest to a researcher, especially if they aren’t looking for these factors. These are meaningful to me only due to subjective consciousness. To someone using an objective lens, feggetaboutit. It’s all just getting carried away with meaningless coincidences and such, right?

I tell this story to illustrate all the various spectrums of consciousness that get involved in any one seemingly “simple” situation. Blue, green, yellow. Different observers in the room had different conclusions on what was happening. No one can be proven “right”, but what is interesting is the questions that are not asked and the assumptions that were made. Consciousness, again. Manifestation — what made a patient in a coma decide to wake up and wave at me? A weird wave sensation in my body a split second before the patient woke up. (Was that predictive consciousness? Transmitting of split atom particles or something? I have no idea, maybe you can tell me.) What about energy that cannot be measured? Heat that happens in the body during the work, apparently for no logical physics reason. I feel it, but no one else in the room seemed to. Does that mean it didn’t happen? Machine behavior that changes. Me saying I see colors and distortions in the air around this man. A failed organ that comes back to life suddenly and unexpectedly. A friend who knew nothing about any of this calling me to tell me stuff, as if somehow he had been pinged by something or someone in the ether to do so. All of these things are parts of the whole.

None of these things on their own is probably that interesting. “So what??” some reductionists would say. But put all of these things together, it is up to the observer if they wish to see anything at all. Is there any pattern whatsoever worth looking at? That, of course, would depend on the interpreter’s consciousness. Which, from my pov, is the biggest irony in this of all, given that consciousness is what the interpreter is trying to analyze. The scientist may totally miss the fact that his own consciousness does impact how he interprets his analysis of how he thinks consciousness works. Does the whole of all of it seem bigger than the sum of its parts? One researcher might say, “Hmm, maybe there is something here worth looking at,” while another researcher might say, “No, it is all in your mind and a bunch of coincidences.”

This is the kind of stuff I deal with all the time. I know in my consciousness things are happening. I know that reality is bending. And if things like this keep happening with the work, though in diferent ways, then what? What would that mean? But then again, someone else may dispute this all together, and have the opposite opinion. It’s fine by me.

So, Steve, what would you suggest? Do you really feel an instrumentalist approach would adequately capture all the nuances of this scenario? Would it really give you anything new, in terms of how to understand consciousness or even energy movement? Or would it only measure one part, find nothing, and conclude nothing was there?

You could, of course, simply dismiss everything here that happened, including all that was experienced by the patient, myself, the wife and the observers. Maybe there is some explanation for everything and we can all go home now and stop looking…problem solved.

But I would hope that wouldn’t be the only answer people can reach for. I do not have the answers. I just happen to think there is more going on than meets the eye. More stuff worth considering and studying, if scientists want to. But only if people are willing to change their perception about they think they are studying.